Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Tell me something good today

PLEASE!

I'm tired of being sad.

I'm tired of a lot of things.

My grandmother died early this morning (this is incidental to everything in my life right now really. That sounds incredibly harsh but it was a blessing. She'd been in terrible pain for a few years and this has been coming for a while. When she did die it was peaceful for her. She hugged her nurse, said good night and I love you and died in her sleep. I am NOT asking for sympathy or anything like that.)

I'm tired of people who can only complain.

I'm tired of people who can only whine about stuff (so really right now I'm really pissing myself off but oh well. I'm hopefully getting this out of my system and I'll be able to get over it soon.

I'm tired of people who can only poke fun and not celebrate the good things in life.

I'm just TIRED.

I need someone to tell me something good.

So what is something GOOD that is happening in your life.

***This will be one of the times I delete posts. If there is anything negative it will be gone...as soon as I figure out HOW to delete it LOL

~Erin

29 comments:

Dakota Cassidy said...

I'm right there wit ya, babe. I'm sorry about your grandma. My condolences.

DC :)

Mary Winter said...

My condolences as well. Something good... all the seeds I've planted have sprouted and the rain has come at the right time (since I forget to water my plants, because they don't make noise) Hope this makes you smile.
Mary

Julie said...

Something good..........let's see.........I know!

My bird has all her feathers back. She hit puberty, and all those hormones caused a really bad molt. She had big bald spots and had pms worse than me. ;-0 Hormones finally back to normal, and feathers filled in so she's beautiful again.
And my brother's fish had babies the other day. There are about 6 teeny little Mollies schooling around the tank.

How's that, did you smile a little?

Hugs,
J

Erin the Innocent said...

thanks Dakota :) I appreciated the IM shoulder you gave me tonight.

That's fantastic Mary! I have such a brown thumb I feel bad for my plants LOL I have some herbs I planted this year (for the kitchen) that are still thriving so woo hoo me there!

Thanks Julie *g* It made me snort/giggle to read about a pubescent bird LOL

Di said...

Hi Erin.

Honey first off my sincerest condolences. Everything you feel you have a right to feel, and I know how you feel, because i felt that the day my mom died but mostly the days following her death.

Hon, just know I care, all kidding aside, if you ever need to talk I am a good listener.

But, Erin, along with all of your feelings, try not to seperate yourself from those who care and love you ok, and hon, don't think about tomorrow today, just try to finish today. I promise this will pass and tomorrow is another bright and sunny day, to start fresh.

I am am with you hon, and I don't want you to deep a lurking mode cause I'd miss you to dammed much, I mean who is going to give us the words or sentences of the day...

Anyhow, I just wanted to send you hugs and some positive energy.

Take care of yourself Erin and please stay in touch...

Love ya hon..

Di

Lori said...

(((Erin))) I'm sorry about your grandmother. Even when it's a good thing for her, it's a sad thing for you.

Good things, huh? My kids are totally psyched about leaving for a week of camp on Sunday. And the DH and I are totally psyched for the kids to leave for a week of camp on Sunday LOL!

And the rat got out of her cage and neither the cat nor the dog ate her up - in fact, everyone just did the sniffy sniffy and went their own ways. How's that for happy?!

Hang in there!

Erin the Innocent said...

Thanks Di and Lori

I don't know that I'd be happy about a rat loose in the house but I'm glad he lived :)

Enjoy the week of swinging from the chandeliers (however you spell that) and other naughty stuff you get to do whenever and whereever (in the house) you want with your DH *g*

Sam said...

(((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
Life is beautiful -
Go sit in the sunshine for a while (& don't forget the sun-scream as my daughter says, lol)

Lynne Connolly said...

You sound burned out. I use my hobby, doll's houses, which helps a lot. I can lose myself making teeny tiny things for my fantasy world. Worth trying, if that kind of thing appeals to you.
Take it easy, Erin, and read some good books, or do what you fancy for a while. Sleep a lot and take a few vitamins every day. Wait it out. It will pass, I promise.
Good news - hmmm - the cats are healthy, I'm about to start writing a new book, and England were top of their group in the World Cup. That do you?

Anonymous said...

Erin,

I am so sorry about your Granama. Sending hugs and prayers,honey.

I can relate to how you are feeling. This has been a very tough year. I am on no mail on almost every list for pretty much the same reasons.

Now for the good news,nine months
after Katrina, we are finally in our new home. It needs some things done to make it "ours", but is lovely in a very serene and peaceful setting. We have a small pond, our own duck and a cat who has adopted us. We're far away from New Orleans, and hopefully, another major hurricane. We've torn ourselves from our roots, but have "replanted" ourselves. Life in Hessmer/Bunkie is very different from life in a major metropolitan area; for instance the pharmacy closes at five and all weekend. LOL

But life is good, other than my knee. I hope this cheers you some.

A friend who has gone through similar experiences sent me this. I wanted to share it with you:

"Don't wish me happiness,

I don't expect to be happy all the time...

It's gotten beyond that somehow.

Wish me courage and strength and a sense of humor.

I will need them all."

- Anne Morrow Lindbergh

Hugs,
Patti

Charlene Teglia said...

Good things: Jo Leigh is giving away more copies of Closer! Great read, check out her blog. : )

My parents sent me a pillow case covered in half naked cowboys from Montana to celebrate my sale of Wild Wild West. Will post pic in my blog, too funny not to share.

Morgan has a new tooth and is getting better at walking.

Alex thinks she's a tiger. Must post pics of that, too. The tail cracks me up.

12 Sharp is out and verrry fun to read.

Excerpt o rama and mass giveaways at EC chat today. And today is the cusp of magic, a magical day.

((((((Erin)))))

Elaine Corvidae said...

Good stuff:

I'm happy because I just got the paperback copies of my latest book. :-) And my garden is doing really well--normally I have a black thumb, but so far not only is everything still alive, but it's flowering and/or bearing. I'm way more excited about this than I probably ought to be, lol. I have vacation coming up next week, too, so I'm really happy about that. :-)

Megan said...

Erin;

I'm so sorry to hear about your Grandmother's passing and for your loss.

Be tired. I have chronic fatigue and am tired a lot, both mentally & physically and sometimes you need to just say okay, I'm tired. I need to rest and do it! Take the time you need.

One of the best things I read that has stayed with me is "Don't let other people determine your actions & behaviour."

Hang in there.

Megan

Jaci Burton said...

My sympathies on the loss of your grandmother, Erin. She's in a much better place now and no doubt dancing and smiling and happy :-)

I love your blog colors. So bright and cheerful!

Good news - my son is still here visiting..we're having a great time. We took a trip to visit my mom who's doing great! Charlie came home from his trip today..I missed him so it was nice to be with him again. *grin*

Always surround yourself with things and people that make you smile and stay away from the negatives. :-)

Michelle said...

Good morning Erin,

Something good? Well I have some of that for you, the question is where to start hhhhhh...

Okay's, James is at football camp, so the house is less crazy and he's not eating hot fudge sundae's in front of me - YIPPIE...

I put the down payment on my new house a couple of days ago and last night I found out the guy who is removing the trees from my lot will most likely have it done in less than two weeks --- Double YIPPIE!!

I started my new 'get healthy' program on June 2nd and I'm thrilled to report it's working and do I mean working. This stuff is amazing - I'm out of pain, my headaches are gone and I've lost 17 pounds so far. I feel better, have more energy than I've had in years and I'm excited.

My grand daughters are wonderful. Katelyn is into finger painting at the moment so we've had lots of fun with that and Bailey is growing so fast. She is smiling and the other day she laughed for the first time.

My daughters are both doing great and I'm thrilled because Nicole has been able to work out her schedule so she and the kids are joining James and I on the California trip. We plan to do the disneyland thing and Nicole wants to visit the San Diego zoo, so that should be a lot of fun too.

Oh...I've been writing again. It was a long dry spell, but I'm making progress.

That's about it for now, darlin. I want you to know, I completely understand how you're feeling and just remember, I'm here. If you need me all ya gotta do is call, babe!

Michelle

My condolences on the loss of your Grandmother, Erin.

Be well
Be safe
and always be you!

Anne said...

Good Morning Erin...

You have my deepest sympathy on your loss((HUGS))

Good things going on... Well, as you know I went to the Lori Foster thingie a couple weeks ago... got requests for partials from all three meetings (2 editor, 1 agent)... so that's VERY good. : )

This week I also found that no matter how hard you try, you can't change your writing style to try to be like those who don't write like you yet are trying to help you with your storyline and edits. I'm extremely happy with the way things are going now even though for a few days I hated my book. I realized it has to have MY voice and no one elses.

My son came home with GREAT grades... the one who had almost Ds and Fs in everything.. so that was so super wonderful I nearly cried. I told him I was so extremely proud of him. Just a few more bumps up on one grade from a C to a B and he'd have made honor roll. How amazing is that???

I'm sorry you're in a funk and I was in one last week that lasted until a few days ago... when I found my muse again. I hope your funk passes as quickly and easily as mine, Erin. (((HUGS)))

Take care my friend!

Shiloh Walker said...

sorry if my posting appears twice... blogger wouldn't post the first one.

Don't let the negative crap drag you down, Erin. Most of the people just aren't worth it.

But you wanted good things...

:-)

My baby bratlet is now 1 week old, saw the doctor for her first check up and she's healthy as can be. PLUS she let me SLEEP last night.

AND... my first mass market paperback is out in two weeks.

Does that work?

Lis said...

Erin,
I'm sorry for your loss. And though she is in a better place I know you'll miss her. The day after my Grandmother died (many thousands of miles away) I was engulfed by the smell of her perfume and I could feel her smiling. Her presence was so strong it were as if she were sitting right bedside me. I knew she was happy.
Good things? Well I've been in a bit of a funk myself and very tired of late but I may be watching another bubs starting in August which will ease the neverending financial struggle some. I am SO enjoying having my duaghter home from school for summer vacation. Ty (my son) graduated from High School last month, which we all thought was a miracle in itself lol.
Hang in there babe and know you are cared about.
Lis

Lisa F. said...

Erin, Praying for you and your family. Loss is never easy and that is why we go through the grieving process. Combined with your job, you are having extra trouble dealing with it. Remember you have friends online who are thinking about you and praying for you.

Rhea said...

I woke up in a good mood despite the fact I'm PMSing!!! (good enough? LOL) I lost a grandma I was close to, also. And no, it's not harsh saying it was a blessing. She was in pain here, she was ready to go, and she's in an awesome place now and I have some GREAT memories. I'd like to think she would be proud of me of where I am in my life right now and that's good enough for me. :)

Rhea,CP73, Lady of Flight

Denise A. Agnew said...

Erin,

Hon, everyone goes through times like these. I'm with you when it comes to negativity. I'll email you personally and tell you how I banish negativity. :) You're right, though, there are a lot of people who thrive on negativity. I try not to. :) What's neat that's happening in my life? A lot of things, including having an agent who really loves my work, being able to write full time, having lots of books out, and having the world's greatest husband. My life is really damn great. Now that I've said all that, I do have the occasional bummers, and sometimes the whopper bad things. But mostly I'm very good. You just lost your grandmother, so that's going to color everything for a bit. Give yourself time to grieve, to feel it so that it won't end up coming back to haunt you later. Hang in there!

Denise A. Agnew
www.deniseagnew.com

Bonita said...

{{{{{Erin}}}}}, You and your family have my sympathy on the loss of your grandmother. I hope things improve for you, but if you need to talk, please email me -- I can listen with the best of them.

Good things: Chip is feeling better, Alyssa cut her third tooth, I love working at the library (especially with the wee ones for storytime), I have had a few moments to begin catching up on my reading, Chip's 51st birthday is Monday.

Sherry said...

Erin, sorry for the loss of your Grandmother.

As for good things ..... My brother and SIL were contacted by DHS about adopting a baby and they are soooo excited.

We got the new mega computer system we orders and DH and boys are having a blast playing games on it.

And my broccoli plants are getting new leaves after the attack of the killer worms.

N.J.Walters said...

Erin, my sincerest condolences on the loss of your grandmother.

Good things...every day is filled with good things. Just waking up every morning next to my husband is a blessing. The sun is shining, I'm healthy, I have a wonderful husband, I have a sister and brother that I not only love, but I like them as well, and I have the best job in the world.

Some folks thrive on negativity. Don't them them drain your energy. It's what they do best.

Hope you're feeling better soon!

Hugs
NJ

Jenna Leigh said...

Erin,
I'm sorry about your Mamaw, but I do understand about the relief thing as well.
As to the positive, try to think of the good memories you to share.
And the only thing I could see as to making you maybe smile, is to tell me how you get that little stick man on your comments. I want the little stick man with a large and angry lust in my heart. There.. if not a grin, then there is at least a bit of happiness that you are not as insane as me.
(hugs)

Erin the Innocent said...

Thank you everyone for all the kind words you've said to me and all the smiles I've had reading this.

OH MY GOD JENNA!!! I almost snorted pepsi out my nose when I read your comment.

Honestly I don't know how I got the little stick man on my comments. I think it has something to do with the background of my blog. Jaynie did it (because blogger makes me swear) so maybe ask her?

Stacy~ said...

Erin, I'm so sorry about your grandma. It must have been so hard to see her in pain, but that doesn't make her passing easy to bear. Remember how much you love her and she loved you. I'm sure you have wonderful memories.

Something good? Well today I filled in at my old office and about 5 people told me how much they missed me - gave me the warm fuzzies *g* I hope you are feeling better.

Daisy Dexter Dobbs said...

*Hugs*, Erin. As for good news, it begins with your wonderfully positive attitude and wisdom in seeking out things that will make you smile and laugh and lift you from despair. And look what you’ve found! Tons of blogging people who truly care about you. Why? Because you’ve always given of yourself. :-)

Oh, but that’s not all, Erin. I did a little research and am pleased to report that historians recently discovered evidence of the existence of the legendary Grandma Clause. Perhaps you read about it. Apparently it’s an ancient clause drafted by the Grandma Brigade--a society of apple-cheeked granny-angels designated to welcome newcomers like your grandma and get them set up in their heavenly abodes. Anyway, the Grandma Clause grants a temporary moratorium on weight gain from the ingestion of chocolate and all fattening comfort foods and beverages for a period of 87 3/4-hours following the passing of one’s grandma. The only stipulation is that, as you sip and munch, you must remember to celebrate by toasting your grandmother’s life and remembering the good times. So go ahead, Erin, and indulge to your heart’s content before the grace period ends. The clause stipulates that during this special 87 3/4-hour period your grandma and the entire Grandma Brigade will be celebrating right along with you. :-D

Jenn said...

I want the stick man! And by golly I had one of this man's blog designs and I DIDN'T HAVE THE LIL STICK.. therefore I killed it and got another design so fpth.. (hugs) And I am jealous of your pepsi snot as I've not had pepsi in a month.. *sniffles*