Saturday, June 24, 2006

June TBR challenge completed

It was actually completed a while ago but I've been lazy about blogging about it. That isn't to say that Cast of Shadows by Kevin Guilfoile wasn't a really REALLY good read. Because it was. It took me a long time to get through it though. It wasn't a light read.

If you're looking for a few hours of brain candy, which I do love *g*, then you'll want to pass this book on to someone else. If you're looking for a story that makes you think 'what if ....' then this is a fantastic story. The ending PISSED ME OFF *g* I won't tell you why though. It was perfect but it made me say 'oh for CRAP sake' out loud.

Will I be keeping this book? Definitely. I'll also be lending it to others (who I can trust to give it back) to read. I'll also be looking for more from this author.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Tell me something good today


I'm tired of being sad.

I'm tired of a lot of things.

My grandmother died early this morning (this is incidental to everything in my life right now really. That sounds incredibly harsh but it was a blessing. She'd been in terrible pain for a few years and this has been coming for a while. When she did die it was peaceful for her. She hugged her nurse, said good night and I love you and died in her sleep. I am NOT asking for sympathy or anything like that.)

I'm tired of people who can only complain.

I'm tired of people who can only whine about stuff (so really right now I'm really pissing myself off but oh well. I'm hopefully getting this out of my system and I'll be able to get over it soon.

I'm tired of people who can only poke fun and not celebrate the good things in life.

I'm just TIRED.

I need someone to tell me something good.

So what is something GOOD that is happening in your life.

***This will be one of the times I delete posts. If there is anything negative it will be soon as I figure out HOW to delete it LOL


Friday, June 09, 2006

I'm burnt out

I can't remember ever being as exhausted and tired of work as I have been this year (and trust me, last year was a HELL year!) and it's taken me a LONG time to figure out what was wrong.

All of the staff I am with through the day have been incredibly NEGATIVE and it's extremely tiring to be around. EVERY single day is filled with complaining and bitching and plain old being mean. I'm somewhat to fault for this for keeping my mouth shut. No I'm not an angel, I do some of the bitching too. The difference between me and the other (2 specifically) is mine is not constant AND I haven't been putting someone else in the uncomfortable position of being in the middle of things. I'm too tired to argue and if I ask them to stop or if I try to say the opposite of what they're saying about some of the other people we work with it turs into a fight. It's just not worth it (to my mental health).

I'm done.

I've made the decision to actively look for something different (and by different I think I need to even change fields I work in. I'M TOO BURNT OUT) after I get back from my holiday in July.

I'm too young to be hating my life lol.

and on that note I'm going to put in something positive I found on Sheri's blog and was given permission from her to put here. (sorry if I'm babbling)

Heavenly Father, Help us remember that the jerk who cut us off in traffic last night is a single mother who worked nine hours that day and is rushing home to cook dinner, help with homework, do the laundry and spend a few precious moments with her children.

Help us to remember that the pierced, tattooed, disinterested young man who can't make change correctly is a worried 19-year-old college student, balancing his apprehension over final exams with his fear of not getting his student loans for next semester.

Remind us, Lord, that the scary looking bum, begging for money in the same spot every day (who really ought to get a job!) is a slave to addictions that we can only imagine in our worst nightmares.

Help us to remember that the old couple walking annoyingly slow through the store aisles and blocking our shopping progress are savoring this moment, knowing that, based on the biopsy report she got back last week, this will be the last year that they go shopping together.

Heavenly Father, remind us each day that, of all the gifts you give us, the greatest gift is love. It is not enough to share that love with those we hold dear. Open our hearts not to just those who are close to us, but to all humanity. Let us be slow to judge and quick to forgive, show patience, empathy and love.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006


One month from TODAY I will be in New York!!!! I am taking a 1 week vacation this summer :) (my first in about 15 years)


Now I just have to get through the rest of this month before I'm done my school job.

Cross your fingers for me :)

Monday, June 05, 2006

A moral delima....

I'm about a third of the way through my June TBR challenge book (which is fantastic so far btw) and I just didn't want to wait 'til the book was done to comment on it.

I'm reading Cast of Shadows by Kevin Guilfoile
. It isn't an easy read (even though it's an extremely interesting book). I've been surprised that I'm reading as slowly as I have been with it. (normally I'd be finished this book by now) It's a thinker though so I've been taking my time.

My question is this .... Imagine that your child was raped and murdered and the person who did this is out there somewhere .... but no one knows who it is. Imagine now that you are a doctor who deals with cutting edge genetic reproductive techniques and you have the capabilities to clone humans.... you can create a clone of the person who did this to your child....

So what would you do?